[ar:Alanis Morissette]
[ti:The Couch]
[la:uk]
[by:Lexington]

[00:00]you hadn't seen your father in
[00:05]such a long time he
[00:09]died in the arms of his lover how
[00:13]dare he your
[00:17]mother never left the house she
[00:21]never married anyone
[00:26]else you took it upon yourself to console her

[00:35]you reminded her so much of your
[00:39]father so you were banished and you
[00:43]wonder why you're so hypersensitive and why you
[00:48]can't trust anyone but us but then how
[00:53]can I begin to forgive her so many
[00:56]years under bridges with dirty water she was
[01:01]foolish and selfish and cowardly if you ask me

[01:09]I don't know where to begin in all of my
[01:14]50 odd years I have been silently
[01:18]suffering and adapting per-
[01:22]petuating and enduring who
[01:26]are you younger generation to tell me
[01:31]that I have unresolved problems not many
[01:35]examples of fruits of this type of
[01:39]excruciating labour

[01:44]how can you just throw words around like
[01:48]grieve and heal and mourn I feel
[01:53]fine we may not have been born as a-
[01:57]wake as you were it was
[02:01]much harder in those days we had
[02:05]paper routes uphill both ways we went from
[02:10]school to a job to a wife to
[02:14]instant parenthood

[02:19]I walked into his office I felt
[02:23]so self-conscious on the couch he was
[02:27]sitting down across from me he was
[02:32]writing down his hypothesis I don't know i've got a
[02:36]loving supportive wife who doesn't
[02:40]know how involved she should get you say his
[02:45]interjecting was him just
[02:48]calling me on my shit?

[02:53]just the other day my sweet daughter I was
[02:58]driving past 203 I walked
[03:02]up the stairs in my mind's eye I remember
[03:06]how they would creak loudly she was
[03:10]only responsive with a drink he was
[03:15]only responsive by photo I was
[03:19]only trying to be the best
[03:23]big brother I could

[03:28]i've walked sometimes confused sometimes ready to
[03:32]crack open wide sometimes in-
[03:36]dignant sometimes raw can you i-
[03:41]magine I pay him 75
[03:45]dollars an hour sometimes it feels like
[03:49]highway robbery and sometimes it's
[03:54]peanuts I wish it could last a
[03:57]couple more hours

[04:02]so here we both are battling similar
[04:07]demons (not coincidentally) you see n getting
[04:11]beyond knowing it solely intellectually you're not
[04:15]relinquishing your majestry you are
[04:19]wise you are warm
[04:23]you are courageous you are big
[04:27]and I love you more now than I
[04:32]ever have in my whole life